How Acceptance Changed Me

"Honey, you are worth it."

That is the thing that I have been telling to myself for 14 days now. I can proudly say that I am now able to love myself more after putting this as a routine. I declare that the old Odile, the one who is always insecure and anxious has gone. 

This started 14 days ago when I attended an event held by Riliv, the first online consultation platform for mental health in Indonesia. I had free brief consultation with a professional psycholog from HIMPSI, Wanda. I told her about my insecurity. I have always consider myself unworthy as a human being and I don't deserve to be loved. Not only in a romantic way but also love in general. The past events worsen my condition to the point that I felt guilty to my friends who helped me during my hard times. After listening to my story, Wanda told me to create a list of my positive and negative points to evaluate myself. She told me to focus on my potential and keep telling myself everyday how precious I am. She told me to accept myself and love myself more. 

Yes. Acceptance is indeed the key. I accept my flaws and all. Once I fully accept myself, I will eventually love myself. I accept my flaws and I understand the consequences, therefore I need to improve myself. I love myself and I want myself the best. I nourish myself with positive stuffs only - listening to motivating, inspiring, and educating podcasts, stop wasting my time to be with toxic people, trying to care less about what people think about me,meditating, and telling myself that I am worth it.  I am still on this journey of improving myself. This is not easy, but doable. 

If you are reading this, I hope that you will accept yourself too.